Okay, here is the thing. I am a web developer. I am also a filmmaker. As such, I never work on my blog because these two personalities are always screaming conflicting things. When I get a blog post written, I hit publish, step back to take a look at my site... and am mortified by how bad it looks. A good sixty or so percent of the people reading this might think I'm being crazy, but I build web sites for a living. I know how they are supposed to look and this one violates so many of the rules and suggestions out there that it makes me irritated at myself. "So redesign your web site," you tell me. Of course! I would LOVE to. Here's the thing about that, though. Web technologies are always changing. I learn the "best way" to do things, redesign my site and then take another contracting gig that shows me an even BETTER way to do things, and on and on it goes. It takes a lot of time to redesign a site. And when you are working on other people's sites for eight hours a day, there is little time left for yours.
And because I have so little free time, I feel I should spend it writing. So, I am left with this constant battle going on in my head. Use my spare time for projects or use my spare time to redesign my site?
Lately I have chosen to use my spare time for projects. Looking at the timeline on this blog, you might not believe me. That's because I don't write where anyone can see it and none of my films are "sharable" quite yet. I write at 750words.com daily and won NaNoWriMo this year, writing a 50,000+ word novel during the month of November. It feels so satisfying to get all of that writing done, but the major problem is that no one can see it.
In the case of my novel, that is a very good thing at the moment. The story changed about four times while I was writing and the whole thing is a jumbled mess. The hefty job of rewriting and editing is now upon me. In the case of my words at 750words.com, that is both a good and a bad thing. Much of that writing reads like journal entries and I don't necessarily want to share (nor do you necessarily want to read about) the inner workings of my mind. A few of my entries have actually been short stories, thoughts about life in general, and "practice" blog posts, though. Those entries should be read.
Enter 2014. A new year. This year, I am trying a few things. I gave up facebook for one (so far, so good). Getting back in shape post-baby is another. The most important resolution for me this year is to get my writing "out there." I will work on redesigning my site, but in the meantime, I am not going to be idle with the blog posts anymore. I still want to finish up my extras stories (I have a couple of really great ones). I have short stories that I want to publish and I now have two NaNoWriMo novels that are begging to be edited and distributed. It's relatively easy to self-publish these days, so no more excuses!
Yes, my blog is a bit difficult to read. No, my site is not responsive yet. I will work on that when I can. When the site design updates, the blog posts will too (ah, the beauty of WordPress), so I am just not going to worry about it. Presentation is huge to me, but content is as well. Right now, I am focusing on content.
Now that I think about it, that is a lovely metaphor for why I put a hold on my Facebook account!